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Wednesday, May 18, 2011

quitter or winner?



People tend to leave the situation they’re not comfortable with. Well I tend to do that. Have you ever heard that "Winners don't quit and quitters don't win?", Or maybe a little simpler one, "Don't quit when you face something hard", or maybe the simplest, "Quit never solve anything". Well I've heard all of those phrases and every time I heard those I promise to myself that I won't quit no matter what situation I face. But well promise is just promise, I never can do all those phrases when I face a problem either its big or even small, I tend to make excuses to quit. It's not good, I know, but I'm just ordinary people that have heart and confusion all over my head, so when I say I quit, it didn't mean I quit for good, I quit for a while then I try to back and solve that problem. Because sometime quit is the easier way, right?

Well let me tell you something people, it isn't, it really isn’t, it will broke your future into pieces.

I've been a quitter since a kid, I know it’s bad and know that bad habit influencing my attitudes, making me an irresponsible one and tend to hang on somebody older and stronger than me every time the problem comes. But I thank Allah for making me my new me. Because of one situation I can't tell in this blog because its personal, I change, I promise myself to not being a quitter and start being a winner because we all are winners, I remember when I'm attending a seminar few weeks ago, my lecturer, Mr. Arnold said that we all born a winners, hell yeah we are a winners, so why oh why we spend our days to be a quitters that carry us to be a loser? no I don't want that. So from now, promise me, promise yourself that no matter what situation we face, we will never ever even think about quit because when you quit you'll have to go around to find a way back to entry door and if you're not so lucky you'll never going to the entry door and you'll stay outside forever.
I will never quit, because I'm a winner, so do you people, we're all a winner
;)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

single with hope


Just quote the title from Kurt Hummel’s lines on Glee Season 2. Found it true and exactly what I feel right now.
 

Just for a little preview I've been loving the boy for 3 years and until now I'm still single with hope, hope of getting the boy's love, hope of telling the boy how I feels, hope of forget the boy. 

What's hope actually is? Well from the English dictionary hope is mean: To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.

For me, hope is all I've been through in life. We never left a second in this life without a hope in our heart and mind. Hope of being someone, hope of having something, hope of getting someone, hope, hope, hope, hope...everything.

Some people may say that hope is nothing without working. Well that's right. Absolutely right. For the entire single ladies/boys out there, include me, we're hoping but we still working, even working on getting him,/her telling him,/her or forget him/her. So on this night as what I would said as my muddle night, I would like to say keep hoping! Because hope is not a crime, hope is something that can get us anything we want or getting close to that anything. Hoping is our motivators on chasing someone or something we expect. Hoping is our energy to chasing it. Hoping is our silent supporter to keep pursues it. Hoping is everything. Just keep hoping but don't forget to still working on it. 


after all it's not so bad to keep hoping things right? because  in the end ,the fulfillment of having that  "something" is because we hoping that "something" before. 
so, ready to hoping with some working??

Happy hoping everyone ;)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

when i have so much to say


now and then i try to find a place in my mind
where you can stay
you can stay awake forever
how do i live without the ones i love?
time still turn the pages of the book it's burned
place and time always on my mind
i have so much to say but you're so far away
sleep tight i'm not afraid
the ones that we love are here with me
lay away a place for me
cause as soon as i'm done i'll be on my way to live eternally
how do i live without the ones i love
time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
place and time always on my mind
and the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
when i have so much to say and you're so far away



been listening to this song back and forth tonight. what a beautiful lyrics, right? it express my feeling tonight, the feels of losing my special one, my other soul, my guardian, my everything.

some people said that you'll never know the feeling of losing someone until you lost someone special in your life. it's true. absolute true. it's been a year since i lost him and none of the second in my life i stop thinking about him. many people said that as time goes by the pain will also fade away. it's not true. totally untrue. in fact, as time goes by, the feelings grow bigger and bigger. you know the feelings of waiting someone to coming back but he's not coming? when you counting days, looking at the calendars, and imagining what will happen if he's still here? the time when i reached something amazing in my life and ready to share it with him, but i can't. the time when you feel like you stuck in life and needs someone to give you the wisdom words that can make you get up and live this life again. i'm still waiting, waiting for me to meet him again, to hug him again, to  be kissed in my forehead again, to be spoiled again. even though the pain is still here but i know he sees me, he sees my family, the only thing different is our sight now, he sees me from the above, not from the equal sight as before.

we can't avoid separation, in life, either we like it or not, it will always happen. what we can do is prepares our self, be tough, be strong, and be ready to face it. 

one thing i gets in mind by losing my special one is that Allah and him loves me and my family so much to feel this because when he left us, he knows we strong enough to handle this and that way i know that he believe in us and that believe is the believe that will lead us to continue this temporary life when he live eternally up there.

it has been a year


It's been a year.
A year without your smile.
A year without your laugh.
A year without you sneak into my room door every morning.
A year without you in dining table.
A year without your sisha smoke.
A year without your comment to what I wear.
A year without your enthusiasm to weekend.
A year without your cough sound.
A year without your wisdom words.
A year without your story of life.
A year without your lesson about my college subject.
A year without your comfort hug.
A year without your kiss on my forehead.
It's been a year.

But it's been a year with your presence every single time in my heart and mind.
I'm sincere now dad because I know you're in heaven.